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I MISS EVERYTHING

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 15:13:13 GMT

I REALLY MISS COLLEGE.BIG TIME. I miss the good old days.

Life outside the crib makes me feel lost even though my life is just like a straight line.And it sucks big time.

I just want to live and enjoy my life the way I wanted to.But I can't.

Thank God Kenneth and Jean are always there to save my day.They will always be the best ever.I love them so much.They fill some emptiness in my life that I'm feeling.

bored

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 15:39:48 GMT

hey blog.i'm bored.spare me.

ANGEL

Sat, 12 Sep 2009 13:07:19 GMT

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
Theres always one reason
To feel not good enough
And its hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
Ill find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
Youre in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
Theres vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It dont make no difference
Escaping one last time
Its easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
Youre in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
Youre in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

:/

Sun, 06 Sep 2009 03:39:00 GMT

I think I've already lost you
I think you're already gone
I think I'm finally scared now
You think I'm weak - but I think you're wrong
I think you're already leaving
Feels like your hand is on the door
I thought this place was an empire
But now I'm relaxed - I can't be sure

I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think I'm just scared - I think too much
I know this is wrong it's a problem I'm dealing

If you're gone - maybe it's time to go home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz there's a little bit of something me
In everything in you

I bet you're hard to get over
I bet the room just won't shine
I bet my hands I can stay here
I bet you need - more than you mind

I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think I'm just scared - that I know too much
I can't relate and that's a problem I'm feeling

If you're gone - maybe it's time to go home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz there's a little bit of something me
In everything in you

I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think I'm just scared - do I talk too much
I know this is wrong it's a problem I'm dealing

If you're gone - maybe it's time to go home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz there's a little bit of something me
In everything in you

sorry

Sun, 06 Sep 2009 03:03:09 GMT

i know how much i've hurt you.i'm really sorry.
but i guess you can never forgive me anymore.
you don't deserve me.
and i don't deserve anyone.
i love you.

mr. happy

Mon, 31 Aug 2009 16:01:51 GMT

Mr. Happy is very special to me.and he will ALWAYS be.

i'm alive you know.

Fri, 28 Aug 2009 19:20:12 GMT

i'm just so busy to blog.that's all.
for some reasons, there is this one special person who made me go blogging again.
no one really knows.i don't think he even knows that.
i'm so pent up with my feelings right now.
i really need to blog it.
he is very special to me.and it really doesn't matter if he feels the same way to me.
all i care is that i'm happy and alive when i'm with him.
i can feel like the world is a happy place to live.
i'm cherishing the last few moments with him.
i will surely miss him after all of this...

my life is all planned out.everything is a routine.
rants and fights everyday.
nothing special anymore.
just for the sake of the number of years of relationship and family ties.
i can't get out of it anymore.

Kahit Maputi na ang Buhok Ko

Sun, 24 May 2009 12:01:19 GMT

Just heard this song over the radio.This is exactly just the way i want us to be.

Kung tayo’y matanda na
Sana’y di tayo magbago
At kailan ma’y, nasaan ma’y
Ito ang pangarap ko

Makuha mo pa kayang
Ako’y hagkan at yakapin ooh
Hanggang pagtanda natin
Nagtatanong lang sa `yo
Ako pa kaya’y ibigin mo
Kung maputi na ang buhok ko

Pagdating ng araw
Ang `yong buhok
Ay puputi na rin (puputi na rin)
Sabay tayong mangangarap
Ng nakaraan sa `tin

[chorus]
Ang nakalipas ay ibabalik natin ooh
Ipapaalala ko sa `yo
Ang aking pangako
Na ang pag-ibig ko’y laging sa ‘yo
Kahit maputi na ang buhok ko

[repeat chorus]

Kahit maputi o wala na ang
Buhok ko..

This is how I exactly would like to be with him many, many years from now.

100%

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 12:51:57 GMT

I TRULY ENJOYED HANDOG!

the last time i saw dr. bonilla, he's bald.but now he already had some hair and WE'RE LOVING IT!hahaha!i will really miss him!

also sir butcon.our OR moments with him!he melts us down!

GOT TO LOVE THEM!haha

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Sat, 21 Mar 2009 09:23:11 GMT

I need Him.I can't do this alone.

I'm still having my faith and false hopes in reaching my dream of becoming a cumlaude.

Even though I know the battle had already ended and its over.

I'm doing everything and anything for mom and dad.Besides, its for them.

Its for them why I study hard, study harder, study hardest.

But my best and everything wasn't good enough.

And I haven't made it for them.